"Life has to be lived on a balance. And any time you see your scale is tipped too much on one side, you have to straighten it out."

I totally trust God that everything will be fine.

nope, it's def from the work...

...but sometimes a few tears, a deep breath, and a quick call to mahj are all you need to make it better.

nothing lasts forever

the landscape changes. senior citizen homes arise. the grass grows taller in the cracks of the driveway.

storefronts change. the sun doesn't shine as brightly as it used to.

tectonic plates shift and land breaks away.

erosion happens. the two pieces just don't fit together anymore.

and that's okay.

onward.

I woke up to a room bathed in light. at 3am. a clap of thunder.

I shook the sleep off long enough to walk to the window. to make sure I wasn't dreaming. hell was really breaking loose out there.

and so I returned to the bed, surveyed my sparsely furnished room. clothes strewn everywhere despite the drawers built on Sunday.

it would've been nice to get a little bit closer. to have arms around me. squeezing a little bit tighter.

instead I just crawled under my mother's blanket. to go back to sleep. protected from the rain.

my mom sends me an obscene amount of chain mail

On Friday I received a Tibetan Personality Test, blessed by the Dalai Lama himself.

according to Mr. Lama, my priorities (in order of highest to lowest) right now are: career, money, pride, family, and love. if we're to ignore the middle three and look just at my highest and lowest priorities, this shit is pretty on point.

in order for my wish for fabulousness to come true, I have to send this to 13 people by Wednesday so, take the test!