serenity

why does he get to be happy while I feel miserable?
It only looks that way.
You're right.

I'm actually not miserable. quite happy. just feel like sometimes something is missing...
Which is fine.
Right. Gotta think short term vs. long term.

I'm so ridiculous, I can clearly see God has a plan. plus, nothing happens before its time.
Exaaaactly.

before I went to bed last night, I went through my routine. food away. lights off. into bed. call Tutu. I probably drive her insane, but since she insists that I don't, I just keep doing what I'm doing.

plotting. planning. preparing.

for the day will come when I wrap production on my highly anticipated album. Oprah will tour my neighborhood and interview me for her show and magazine. I'll sell out a benefit show within minutes. I will have written the city's greatest anthem, only to be presented with an opportunity to root, root, root for the home team, opening the World Series with my song. while I proudly sport the cap I've made my trademark.

yeah, it'll go something like that. and while you chalk it up to perfect timing, I'll call it God's plan.

fahjah says fail to prepare is to prepare to fail.

and so I pray.