the dream deferred

I wish when you spoke to me I wasn't surprised, but, um, let's try to see this through my eyes...

So, tell me, is it that you were intrigued by me? Why? Some unique perspective u thought I'd bring to the table? Or is it my hair? You heard I'm going natural? Oh, oops, you think I'm just a cool individual. Well pardon my aprehension, but I'm a product of my environment, see I met some girls when I was twelve and they weren't even tryna, really get to know me, welcome me into their world, they thought I was just some crazy, rude black girl. Because of course when you go to a new place and you're out of your comfort zone, you put your feet up as if you were at your home. fuck the upper east side, jamaica, queens has invaded. I'm here with my crown and I'm chillin on their throne. Sound silly? You're right, because I'm as shy as they come. I wouldve never chosen Hewitt if I knew I'd be the only one. But I'm here now, so whatre we gna do about it? Guess I'll keep to myself because yall can't really deal with it. Guess I'll cry every night cuz I can't deal with the fact that I'm being targeted and I didn't even ask for this. But I'll just stick it out because I have no other choice but to, get a bomb ass education or else I won't make it to Duke. And you're right, it wasn't the entire race of you, but their welcome was less than, so I learned to say fuck you, to a whole race of folks of whom I've barely come into contact, all in an effort to try to counteract, the negativity I received cuz of a color I didn't choose to be- but I love. so to those who have learned to see above, understand why when I see your face, I'm trying to not judge you by your race.